Her mothers lies

**i know this isn't a very good poem but i just had to get some feelings out**

if i could take back all the things i said
and all the things i did
and all the things I've done wrong
it wouldn't change a thing
see, it was you who caused this
why do you try to blame me and dad
when you've been the crazy one all these years
dad just sat back and listened to your orders
did every thing you told him to do
you try to say you were his slave
but really, he was just your b i t c h
i don't know why you do this
you were never treated as bad as i have been
I've lived my life like this for so many years
and never realized what was going on
i thought this was the normal thing to do
but now I've grown up mom
and i know that you are not at all normal
because no one else lives like us
no one else is treated like me
no body knows my pain i go through every day
just to get some food to eat
why do you tell me you have no money
when obviously you do
because its all spent on you
ya you've bought me things from here to there
and been nice to me and what not
but nothing can make up for the way I've lived all these years
i don't get what the f u c k you were thinking
when you had five kids
you don't know how to raise them
you don't know how to treat them
am i the only one that feels this way?
tears come from my wrists
and blood comes from my eyes
i don't even know what way is up
because you never told me right.
you wonder why i do bad in school
and why my sister is the way she is
but whats there to ask
the answer is right out in front of you
staring at you black
the answer is clear
but you don't open your eyes enough to see
the different part of me
that bleeds and cries
all because of her own mothers lies.