Memories of Black and White

She looked at me and smiled
A smile behind sad eyes
I can see past the false laughter
And into the dark, grey skies

I am in the same situation
I can act happy, too
For we both are depressed together
Wishing and pretending our skies were blue

I see her fake, sad smile
Even when she's not here
And when she's so far gone
I'm filled with the greatest fear

I've always held on to what I love
In frantic fear of being alone
Now my fear is being challenged
And it scares me to the bone

She's all I ever wanted
She's all I've ever had
Now she's leaving that behind
And it's driving me mad

Her absent presence still here
But she's so far away
I try to think of the past and future
For everything to be okay

I look on our old letters
And every cute photograph
I look back on our tears together
And our every smile and laugh

They make me feel her with me
So pure and so real
They remind me of a time
When I knew I could feel

But memories are all we have now
The smiles are all in black and white
Look back now on the happiness with tears
And realize that it's no longer alright

I miss our times together
Our laughs and our every cry
All of our best kept secrets
Everything we used to live by

I miss the up all nights
And all hours on the phone
When everything was perfect
We never thought we'd be alone

I miss the inside jokes
And all that we shared
I miss how everything was
The way she always cared

I miss those day-long fights
That I now regret
I miss everything about her
And she's not even gone yet