I Loved you...

Tim, I Love you

how can i be so stupid?
how could i ever love you?
why does my heart hurt?
why cant this be a dream that never came true!?

Why did u have to,
do this f*u*c*k*i*n*g s*h*i*t to me?
What did i f*u*c*k*i*n*g tell you!?
Why can you just f*u*c*k*i*n*g see!?

you knew i loved you,
but u couldn't understand,
now that my heart is riped out,
and my wings bleeding, i don't know where to land.

i just dont believe this,
this must be a dream,
it must have went into a nightmare,
thats why when i cut i scream.

Now, when you see my bloody body,
laying on my bedroom floor,
just look at my arms and wrist,
and see more scars there like before.

But now i went to deep,
and my wrist want to bleed,
Now im dying slowly,
because you never gave me the love i need.

So now i can drop my knife,
and stop the pain,
as i slowly close my eyes,
and on my wrist will be your name.

Just remember Tim,
Nothing matters when we were together,
but now when im gone,
Just remember im f*u*c*k*i*n*g gone forever!

this is my finally moment,
to be in the spot light!
so here i'll me my last applause,
And spit blood up in the night.

Just because you never understand,
doesnt mean you didnt have to care,
now maybe you notice for a damn second,
that i will never be there..

But knowing you,
you might think im nothing,
but when im bleeding on the ground screaming your name,
you know you will think im f*u*c*k*i*n*g something!

But goodbye Tim,
It really hurts to say this,
but maybe you'll understand why...
When you look at my wrist...