Desire

I'll pretend it doesn't hurt me
when he does those things to you
I'll pretend that I don't die inside
whenever you do
I'll pretend my hearts not broken
when you say you love him more
I'll pretend that I don't want you
when you don't want me anymore

I wish it didn't hurt me
when I cry does it hurt you
I wish I didn't die inside
does it hurt you every time I do
I wish my heart wasn't broken
do you feel bad that its you its for
I wish I didn't want you
if I didn't would you want me more

I'll pretend that I'm not crying
and ignore the tears on my face
I'll pretend that I'm not hopeless
when I can't find someone to take your place
I'll pretend that you're not with him
and that no ones really standing there
I'll pretend that I'm with you
and I die because this isn't fair

I wish I wasn't crying
but clearly thats not the case
I wish I wasn't hopeless
I need something to change my pace
I wish that you weren't with him
cause it hurts me more than I can bare
I wish that I was with you
so please forgive me if I stare