Your Suicide

At night,
I wish I could cry
But I don't know how
It's been so long.
I remember
The last time you said
You love me
The last time you tole me
Forever
But you lied
Forever and never
Are the same
I remember the day you left
The last breath you took for me
And I remember
The day you died
You took you life
Why?
Wasn't I enough?
I remember
Your suicide
The night your mom called
The glass wall crashing down
I went numb inside
The ring you gave me
I wear around my neck
To give me strength
But I don't know if I'm really strong enough
I can't take it anymore
Everyone I love
Leaves me
I'm nothing special
I'm empty inside
And at night I dream
Of your suicide
And I wonder
What is it like?
To die?
Would I fall
Into a never ending darkness
A never ending bind
Would I go back to a time
When I was happy
With you
When love seemed so true
When I felt like I
Could make it through
Anything life had to offer
But now I'm not so sure
Because of you
And your suicide.