Wow. just wow. i love this. it's sad, but powerful. i've felt this way before, so i can sort of understand. good luck with overcoming this feeling. it's tough, but you seem to have a strong soul. e-mail me if you need to talk sometime. peace out and keep writing. -Kaotic Kitty.

John, very good! You write from the heart.That comes through in your writing! Hope you find the one you are looking for!