Itâ??s been too long since I have been living this way. Living in a non-existing world, a world where you can be whoever u wanted to be but now Iâ??m ready to come back to reality. I want to express these feelings that I have kept in me for so long, feelings that have made me forget who I am. Who am I? A simple question that I have been searching to answer, deep down is a bunch of answers telling me who I really am. I am a deceiver, a person lost in his own selfish act, a person confused of what he wants out of life. I have lied about who I am, and what I am. Now I realize these lies and acts can no longer exist if I want to be happy. I have deceived many into thinking I am someone that I am not because I was afraid, I was afraid that if they knew the real me, then maybe they wouldnâ??t have cared as much as they do for the act that I put on. A foolish act that in the end bit me right back in the ass, now I am exposedâ??exposed of all my unfaithfulness, I am ashamed of who I have become..aschamed that people will see me and not look up to me as the person they thought of me. All this time I was fighting myself, I made myself my own worst enemy and now I look upon myself with nothing but shame. For I have done something that I will forever regret, a crime that will make everything I ever wanted fade away right in front of me. Now that the secret I kept so long as been exposed and the whole world can see who I really am, people are starting to despise me...iâ??ve ruined the relationship I had with the people that cared about me and now that Iâ??ve realized my mistakes, it will take a lot to fix the problem. Who am i..i ask? I am a person, who tried to hide his past and focus on achieving happiness. I was happy because I had people that cared and people that were down for me all the time but now my past has come to haunt me again. The past that I thought was best to hide from people turned out to be my biggest mistake because now people seem to have lost their trust in me. Now Iâ??ve up my mind, that the old me has come to its demise..because now a new me is reborn.
