Grateful but i still miss u

So grateful to be here
yes i show it with every single tear.
the pain that is killing me inside
all these terrible thoughts i have to hide. all this misery that is here to stay. please dont leave me here another day. with pain i dont want to say goodbye.
dont make me scream it while i cry.
im leaving here, im done with all this sorrow. thinkin there will be change tomorrow!
hoping life will never be the same.
but what will u gain?
watching me suffer day after day.
what will happen if i stay?
will my life be better without another crying night?
without this knife, another eternal fight.
stay by my side.
behind u i wont hide
i will follow my fate of shame
this happy ending that never came
give hope to me for a better tomorrow.
give strength to me because i have all this sorrow.
we got it through the fall
Ive never had it all
so much power in this place to overcome
where was i before, where did this sorrow come from?
so keep my secret
i will not regret
i cant make it through another fall
so it is my time to end it all.....

this is for u my one love! i cant stand being here with out u!! but some how i carry on! i want to be with u so bad.. i want to be with u.. it doesn't matter to me, heaven or hell.. wherever u are... soon ill be there