The words fall across the screen.
i hate you begins a new trend.
a new way of killing off my heart.
the tears fall from my face.
i run into the bathroom.
grabbing the razor.
high up on the shelf.
and i begin to cut down the road.
on my arm making it bleed more.
slice and dice, slice and dice.
I'm making myself sick.
I'm making myself cry more pain.
i can't deal with this anymore.
I'll bleed through my own skin.
my make up washes off.
like my blood slows down to the floor.
i walk out the door.
i go into my room.
no one is in site.
no one is around.
no one cares.
everyone is out of town.
I'm laying here with my arm.
bleeding through my blankets.
laying next to the phone.
waiting for it to ring.
i just fall asleep without knowing it.
i wake up the next morning.
not seeing it.
never called, i never woke up.
i sit there on the floor.
in my pj's and my bra.
i look at the scars i have made.
the night before.
i begin to fall asleep over and over.
the site of blood is making me worthless.
i love you as i say over.
i hate you as i bleed over.
i can't deal with this anymore.
i went into the bathroom.
turned on the water.
make it look like I'm taking a shower.
i pull the gun out of the cabinet.
i go into the tub.
i pray for all the wishes to be gone.
every site of you to be over.
i hold my heart inside and out.
the pain is getting deeper.
my cuts are burning from the hot water.
i begin to hold back.
but i can't handle this anymore.
so i decided i pulled the trigger.
and my endless body.
is laying in the tub.
washing the blood away.
the water is covering me up.
