My own little world that everyone shares

My pain is strong
like everyone I say to strong to bare
I say can not take it
I say I am cold and cannot feel
say that I give up and do not care anymore

I laugh at myself
because my favorite thing does not hurt anymore
I have used the drugs
used the blade
cut so deep I have had over night
hospital stays

I am not careful I do not care if
I die I would laugh
for my soul has already faded
so now lets give it one last run

I pull out my 14 inch razor knife
cut to the bone
and try and stab through as fast as I can
I pin my arm with blade to the ground
I start to cry and laugh
because I know if I die it will be
splendid and everyone will feel a piece
of my pain
everyone will feel my burden
This my little world
This is my depression