Dear father, are you you listening?

Dear father are you listening, I know you hear me.
Cause when I go into my mind and by myself I feel you near me.
I know it seems like I ain't doing my best but at least I tried.
I feel this world is making me to hard cause its been long since I cried.
It went from all words to all beatings to all killings.
I went from all emotions to feeling numb and losing feelings.
I just watch what people do cause I think I can't change it.
Nowadays you do good and its bad to really claim it.
I think I'm losing in this world fight and losing my purpose.
And it don't make a difference they closing clubs and building churches.
I know I'm free but in my heart I still feel slaved.
I know I'm alive but it don't matter cause I still ain't saved.

This was intentionally a rap but I made it a poem.
please, please, please vote and comment I'm new on here and need to know if I'm any good at writing poems.