Every night i sit up wishing for you to die
its either my life goes
or its got to be yours
because i can live like this any more
i took it
and tried to ignore it
but i cant keep my feelings hidden anymore
it only makes it worse
but why can't i say anything to you?
you don't know how to listen
so i don't know how to talk
i keep my pain inside
for no one else to see
its so hard
to go to school everyday
knowing that you have to come home later
to that h e l l hole that you call home
you say you love me
but i can never say it back
i never could
and i never will be able to
there is nothing any one can do to change the way i feel
because i have lived like this for so long
its impossible to forget
so again i pull out that knife
over and over again, i make those scars
my wrists hurt from the blood
my face hurts from the tears
of having this fear
that i have to wake up tomorrow
and picking up this knife
over and over again
