Breaking up with you

Im so tired of this
im falling apart at every word you say
i tell myself to be strong
but it never works that way

I hope to god that you still love me
but at the same time want you gone
my head is telling me this right
but my heart says that its wrong

I think back on all we had
then think of how you lied
and i wonder if youd take it all back
if you knew how hard ive cried

Im sick of the forced smiles
While choking back my tears
im sick of waiting until im alone
So no one else will hear

I love the friends so very much
who try to brighten up my day
they make me feel so much better
but scars dont go away

So i guess i will b alone
if im to face my foe
to tell him that i hate him
but how i love him so

I pray that soon enough
Thisll sort itself out somehow
but i know that, if given the chance
i would end this all right now