Unexplained

As this sharp object penetrates my skin, i watch the blood hit the floor.
self inflicting pain never felt so good. i wish i would have done this sooner..
as i tell my friends they shouldn't cut this is when i become curious to see how it feels. now i begin to realize why they did it.
was it for the pain..no
was it for the attention..no
it was to make pain inside go away
to stop that pain i must reach for a razor slit after slit..
as beads of blood hit the floor i feel tension...the pain inside is gone, my pain i feel no more for after cutting my wrist i have made my mind get off the pain inside and worry about my outer pain that now every one can see you may call me crazy but i am far from that

i have made a promise never to do this again so it was a once and a life time thing i will never cut again because i know if some thing were to happen to me alot of ppl would be up set and worried