Never Go Away

I lost something that i shouldn't.
that i shouldn't got attached to.
i understand it more now.
but it hurt so much.
this is all i can write about.
this is all i can complain about.
but no matter what i will love you.
no matter what if you leave.
leave me here to finish this.
I'll be here if you need me.

i miss kissing you.
i miss telling you i love you.
i miss talking to you on the phone.
but i guess it was for the best.
but then why did i start it.
why did i make myself hurt.
hurt as much as it did.

i don't understand sometimes.
but i understand what you were.
what you were telling me.
in time to come there it is.
that person will be there for me.
that person will be loving me.
will not go and leave me.
even if they did promise me.

you did say you didn't want to hurt.
to hurt me anyway but.
you had to somehow to leave here.
so i can cry now and make it not.
make it not leave me.
or i can make it come out.
I'll tell myself I'll be OK.
and wait and see what happens.
happens sooner or later.

I'm not crying anymore.
even though i see the pictures.
of you and me.
yeah it's sad let me tell you.
but still i love you.
i want to be with you.
but i can't.
i did that already i gotta go.
i gotta move on for you can.
for you can find yourself.
for you can leave to North Carolina.
if you are moving there.
i do have to say i will miss you.
no matter what.

so I'll let all my past go.
because i got to move on from you.
hopefully you will talk to me.
hopefully when we see each other.
you'll ask how i am doing.
hopefully you will stop me.
and just start talking to me.

that's all i want now.
is for you just be friends with me.
i understand more now.
i can work with this.
i promise that to you.
but no matter what those memories.
will always fade inside my head.
and never go away.