It once kept me alive, But now is no longer there

by Becky   Jan 28, 2006


Yesterday was not a day to reckon with
it spread its fire across me and you
I'm sorry for that
I didn't mean to get you tied in

I couldn't deal yesterday
I know I told you I wouldn't
But after you left
I pulled out my trusty friend

I didn't want to hurt myself
because the signs you would easily see
so I began stabbing at my bed
hoping to dry away the pain

then it broke at the hilt
and I felt my heart sink
I can't believe it broke
I remember all the blood it helped spill

I dropped to the ground
and began to try to fix it frantically
but there was no use
it was as broken as broken can be

I thought maybe I can still use it
but for now I will cool down
so I put it back in its drawer
and walked out of the room

I told you what happened
you said good it's for the better
but I told you, you don't understand
I almost began to cry

it has gotten me through the worst of days
it has been there for me no matter what
it has cut my deepest cuts
and held my deepest secrets

so the day just got worse
I couldn't help but need its touch
so I went to my room
and pulled out the drawer

I remembered in despair
that it's broken
never to be repaired
I didn't know what to do without my trusty knife there

but I thought to myself
maybe I can still use it
so I tried and tried
I pushed as hard as I could

but it barely even cut
without the handle to cause the pressure
a few drops of blood
trickled down my arm

its really broken I thought
after all the years
it's truly over
that was my greatest fear

I sank to the floor
and slowly began to cry
I can no longer get the release
that has always kept me alive.

Please comment and vote I will be sure to comment and vote you back, probably on more than one poem. I know this poem may seem stupid to you but it means allot to me. Please vote and comment lots of love *~*Becky*~*

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  • 18 years ago

    by Absolute Broken Perfection

    It seems like you put alot of time into this poem, i like it, i can relate.

  • 18 years ago

    by Loulou

    This poem is really good
    love it
    5/5
    love always
    tabby