My sole loss

*i don't care what rating i get on this, i just have to let it out, it's theraputic, lots of shit going on*

am i guilty of this sin?
this sin of blocking you
from my mind?

ever since you left
I've died a little each day,
helpless and lost.

i miss what you used
to mean for me and how
you'd kiss my doubts away.

i watch you now
immersed in yourself,
no time for me anymore.

though we're no longer
in the love we used to be
you mean so much still.

if we could just talk
and if i could just cry
i know you'd understand.

i am in love with someone else
and i am sure you as well
but we still need the other.

there is more going on
not your fault at all
but it started with you.

lost love, lost friendship,
lost father, lost mother,
i can't stand it anymore.

lie alone and unloved
under my blanket of doubt
awaiting your help once again.