Beautiful disaster

You know you mean the world to me,
even though these struggles bring us closer, they pull us apart in love.
you were the one who stole my heart and your the boy who still holds it!

Ive been waiting for someone like you all my life and to be honest i really do need you. i miss you and we were crazy about each other, i could never stop thinking bout you! but now that were not together I'm lost and I'm loosing everything. my heart is a fragile one and it cant take this pain anymore.

i cant let you see the tears that come to my eyes, and i hate myself for loving you so much!
i miss your voice whispering meaningful things, i miss those warm summer days at the beach were you would kiss my lips.
i am hurt from this tragedy and ill bee waiting for you if you decide to come back. i have fallen in love with you too easily but thats how amazing in my eyes you are to me!
and until i can be held in your arms i will hold you in my heart, because your everything I've ever wanted!

i cry your name in my sleep, as the tears fill my cold ice eyes. and i want to know that you do need me! and i never want you in your whole life to ever forget me! and just not knowing whats real and not I'm barely hanging on any more! and it hurts cause i never got to really say goodbye! and i just love you so much and i don't think i will ever get over you!

your simple little affectionate ways meant the most to me and filled my heart with joy. i just want you to touch me the way you used to i want to feel that sin.

this love is tearing me apart.....you are my beautiful loving disaster and the way i am now isn't me! and i always find myself singing to myself about how i feel. and i know that in my heart that some things are worth waiting for and you are one if your heart leads you back to me! but between now and that time i always just want to {scream} because theres things of you i cant get out of my head! and I'm afraid of my future if I'm without you!

i keep trying to think this is just a bad dream but this pain is really real!
i want you to wipe the tears away from my eyes as you did before.... in the dark. and your the one guy that when you find something about him you cant stop loving him and it rips my heart and soul to pieces because the pictures of you and me fade...but the {memories} stay but you are...
my beautiful disaster.. the best and worst thing that ever happened to me! and i am greatful for every everlasting moment!

{this poured out of me...i would love votes and/or comments please :) thanx}