Untittled (this is 4 real!!!)

No more pain, no more pain-thats all thats going through my head,
Its all gonna be over once I do this and Im dead.
No more crying, no more tears as I wipe them from my eyes,
A lot of people would think that this decision isnt very wise.
No more lying to people saying that Im ok,
Its all gonna end its gonna end today.
But why me, why did I have to get hurt,
It feels like I just got my heart stomped in the dirt.
I never been loved, or cared for,
So I lay here & stare at my wrist as the blood drips on the floor.
Then I focus my eyes on the pills because I dont want to die slow,
I know that taking 20 pills is the only way to go.
I stare at the pills & realize that theres no turning back,
But its not my fault... its the love that I lacked.
All I ever wanted was for me to be able to say... I love you,
And for it to be said back and actually be true.
I down the pills so fast & I know Im on my way,
My eyes get drowsy & colors begin to fade.
In the next second my cell phone rings & theres a man on the line,
He said he always loved me & he wanted to be mine.
My eyes got wide, they nearly pop out of my head,
Cause I know within the hour that I would be dead.
He kept going on and on about how this was fate,
But all I kept saying to him was that it was too late.
I know he didnt understand, but I couldnt say anything more,
Because all I was at that moment, was a body on the floor.