Another night living a lie....

Sitting with the most loving people
The ones she knows who really care
Yet her blade sits in her wallet
Waiting for her blood to be shared.
She fights the temptation, she must stay strong,
She jokes and smiles; she shows how much she belongs.
The devastation she knows they cant see.
Looking into her eyes they cant see her soul,
Yet they find the love from when she was born
The smile that looks so sweet,
The secrets she has to hide,
The lies she longs to set straight,
But how this girl will sit and cry.
She loves these wonderful people but what she longs for still remains
She thinks she hears voices calling out her name,
Can anyone else hear them or is it just her blade?
The urge is becoming too much to handle, can she make it all this while?
Can she resist and stay keeping strong?
Smile still cross her face falls into a frown
It's getting harder and her energy begins to drain
She's not growing weak, she just starts to think
What if they knew, how would they react?
Would she see disappointment or just look away?
She thinks about telling them but starts thinking straight once again
The girl drifts away in her thoughts and slowly trails off,
For yet another night left living a lie.
*I'm not sure bout this one either.... plz let me no....*