The Reason Why

Your mother and I
were going through your things
Talking about
how unreal this all seems

That's when I found it
the note that you'd left for me
So I unfolded the paper
and began to read:

"My beauty, dearest
I'm so terribly sorry
that you had to find out this way,
But please try to understand
that it was impossible for me to stay.

This Earth was so cruel to me
you know this is true
until the day I found kindness
when I looked to you.

Tell my mom about us
about the engagment ring
show her that stone
to let her know we were in love,
and it wasn't "just a fling".

My darling, my love
I cannot explain
or expect you to understand
so if you need some reassurance,
just look at your left hand.

I didn't leave because of you;
you'd be here in heaven with me
if it were my choice to make.
Just know that I believe
we'll be together again
someday, you'll see.

I'd tell you to go on, find new love
but I'm far too selfish.
Just find happiness,
that is my last and only wish.

I've got to go, now
I'm going to do this at the lake
and think of you and me there
remembering the love we made.

God, I could go on like this forever
writing out my love for you
But its my time to go
and pray you find this little piece of truth.

I know that you'll miss me
I'm sure you'll cry
I just want to make it clear
you are NOT the reason why.

One final thing before I go
tell everyone goodbye, and I hope they forgive me
Including yourself, but please don't forget
that I love you -- please remember me.

I'm going for good this time
as I press my lips to these words
And these tears burning my eyes fall onto the page...
I just can't tell you how much this hurts."

I folded the note
and began to cry
Wondering no more,
knowing the reason why.