Why

I want to know what I did wrong to make you feel this way
I keep this angry in me and hurts everyone day by day
why is it that you seem to hate me so much now , why
why is it when i ask you questions you never reply

do you seem to hate me because i have depression
are you happy now that i go to counseling session
are you angry about what you have found out about me
are you will i have done that to make my pain feel free

I have done it for sometime now you can't stop me
i would not care if you lock my in, you still would not see
you would not see the pain you have cause me every year
thats why i can't seem to talk you to you bring out my tears

you would not understand the miserable feelings i have felt
you have never understood my feelings and why i melt
i melt down because i try so hard to be happy for you
but nothing works to make you happy nothing i do

this is why i sit here and watch my life pass me by
because there is nothing i can do not even to cry
I want to say that I'm sorry to for ruining your day
but then i might not mean it because that's my way

why do you adopt so much kids and then blame it on us
I know you hate some of us you just don't want to confess
why do you blame the older kids when it's not our fault
it's nice that we eat dinner together but we can't use the salt

I'm sorry to say but I'm tired of living here especially with you
its just that everything i do i can't do anymore I'm through
I'm through with you yelling and fussing about what I do
I'm trying so hard but you make it harder, you have no clue

and then you wonder why I am depressed,miserable and sad
because everything you do actions or words make me mad
there is no trace or clue in you of what goes in my mind
you don't anything about me not if you where to rewind

you don't know the terrible thought that come in my head
that I wished to commit suicide or that I was to be dead
you don't know how much times I have hated you so
you don't know how much times I wanted to say no

and then you think you know me better then myself
but before you need to know me think about yourself
so again i ask you why you hate me so darn much
is it because I'm not the perfect daughter and such

(C) DevilWithin