The people i love, i hurt, not meaning to but it happens and i lose them. i push them away so i don't drag them down with me. i don't want this darkness to take over their sunshine. i know their disappointed in me but I'm just going to keep disappointing them, i can't concentrate and everything happens to fast. i pull myself together so I'm just hanging in here by a thread but each night i fall apart and before i go to bed i pull myself together again. My heart has died never to bloom again. i don't want to tell anyone so i just box it all up and lock it away. i put up my wall and let only the brave try to knock it down. the girl i see, isn't the girl i once saw. Now i see a girl who's lost in her feelings, a girl thats depressed, a girl who's insecure about herself, like she doesn't know who it is at all! i cry for help secretly as i drown, too afraid for someone to see the true new me and hate me as everyone else does. I'm guarding my heart so it doesn't get broken by all these feelings. i try to save my friends so they don't get hurt from me but it seems not to matter anymore because they get hurt no matter what i do. so the people i love, i hurt, not meaning to but it happens and i lose them.
