At the same time

Will it happen?
Could it happen?
Is it possible
For you to love me?
I know I ask this
Every day,
But you're the one thing on my mind.
You make me smile,
You make me happy,
You make me laugh,
And at the same time,
You make me sad,
You make me cry,
You make me wanna stay in bed all day,
And not move at all,
As if I'm non-existant.
If I stay there,
Nothing can hurt me anymore.
You make me glad it all happened,
And regret that I ever met you
At the same time.
You make me wanna go over 1300 miles to see you,
And wait and anticipate right where I am
At the same time.
I know you've moved on.
You're strong,
Or you never loved
Like you said you did.
I hope someday,
I'll have enough strength.
To move on,
And at the same time,
I want to dwell on this forever,
Just to stay close to you in some way.
I love you,
And at the same time,
I hate you.