I look back at what Ive done with disbelief,
now all i have is grief.
I wish i could turn back time because now the guilt is all mine.
No matter how hard i cry
i still cant look at myself in the eyes.
I'm so tired of this pain
Things will never be the same.
Regrets run around in my head
Like a cigarette burning i see it
slowly turning into smoke,
It disappears in the air,
The smell lingers in my hair.
But still it tears out my heart
because we had to part.
I run through endless fields in my mind
but still the pain cuts through my side.
I'm now standing on a cliff edge
You feel no pain when your dead.
Your the only thread that will mend my heart and give me a fresh start.
The grief, the pain, the guilt,
i feel them everyday.
But your smell, your warmth and
your life I'm yet to feel.
I wish for you every morning
I pray for you every night.
When weeks turn into months
when months turn into years,
I will still shed many tears.
Til the day i die, i will remain
forever by your side.
