Untitled (to my exbf when we were fighting)

I feel we are so close yet so far apart. The only time you treat me well is if just me and you are together, alone. Its so hard to believe some of the things I hear but Im starting to see it all. I guess I was just blinded by love which I hate the sound of that. Im sorry Im not the same girl that you dated at first, you have to realize I was only 14 when I met you and now I am 16 years old. You are not even close to the same guy I met, you have changed a lot. You used to be so sincere and genuine and kind, but now I feel as if you think that you have me for good and you can treat me as you please to, but you cant! I have never let anyone walk all over me and I am not going to start. I have to be strong alone, though you think I should depend on you. All I have ever wanted to see from you is how much you care about me and how much you want to be with me, but you never how it. As much as I love you, I almost see you as a security blanket now and I cant let go of it. You have brought so many troubles to my life, but I cant take that. I have had enough of it all! Friends are so important to me and they will always be there. I told you to hang out with your friends more, which you do, but I didnt tell you to forget about me. You know you are the only guy that I have dated and I kind of want to see how others will treat me. Im not saying that I want to date right now, just I want to hang out with more guys and get to know them. Im not saying that I never want to be with you again, just I really think you need to see who you are as an individual. You need to understand that people care about you a lot and your friends are there to listen to you, dont bottle everything up, you are going to become depressed. You dont even see how you treat me, sometimes I cant believe that I have actually dealt with all of it. You flirt with girls right up front of my face, while ignoring me. I told you right at first, this relationship is way too good to be true, and I was right. You treated me like your world, but now the truth is coming out. I feel as if Im nothing to you, just another "hot" girl to kiss and show off to all of your friends.