Misunderstanding

Standing outside
the clouds darken
and the rain pours down
soaking every inch of me

as I stand there
the cold sets in
I shiver
as each breeze blows

all around I'm surrounded by darkness
I can hear whispers of my name
but the rain pours on
drenching me in every drop

now I stand in my world
the world that no one knows
here is where my emotions stand
in here is where I cry

outside
the shadows consume me
never having a chance at all
breathing is my very challenge
sometimes I ask, why I even try?

but I guess its what I'm supposed to do
wake each morning
dress each day
learn nothing
where ever I travel

but this is what I question
why do I stand in the middle of a lake?
a lake that drowns me in lies
branches off to failure
and becomes a slow puddle

something that just waits
smiling as I fail
laughing as a crumble

someday
I guess I will learn the truth
but until then
my days are numbered

my body will grow weak
and I will bleed
for every falter
that I made