There's so many reasons that i could say no,
Even more to turn away,
But yet i find myself still standing in the light of day.
There are friends to stop me,
But a heart to keep beating,
Enemies to mock me,
But a reasoning i keep repeating.
This is all something I've never felt before tonight,
Is the answer i desire even close to being right?
Is this fake,
What is it worth,
This time will anything even work?
What am i really telling myself,
Who am i playing here?
Why do i have to make it all a fight?
Why does this have to be so un-clear?
Do i want him as a friend,
Do i desire him as more,
Should i force him to just walk out the door?
A life-long question that will never end,
All because of a life-long commitment to an un-worthy friend.
Hearing his voice tells me what i need,
But seeing someone else leaves me in my dreams.
Not realizing it,
But sensing an un-miss able difference,
You know who you want but you just can't admit it.
