Body; numb,
mind seems crazy,
nothings real,
i cant see why,
i want to know to see to feel,
without haze,
that I'm real,
i cant stand this feeling,
i need to feel I'm real,
i feel the blade dig into my skin,
see the blood run down my arm,
feel the sharp pains,
for hours the feeling lasts,
i know i am alive,
i can bleed,
real dark red blood,
it pulses through my veins,
all pain is gone,
all my problems are gone temporarily,
until the next time i explode,
i am real.
for the moment...
