Who am I?

Buried deep inside me,
Bittersweet tears.
Tears of hatred, of pain,
With these my happiness disappears.

My grim, shriveled heart,
Bleeds tears of blood.
One at a time,
A slow paced flood.

My mind overflows with anxiety,
Thoughts of a better life never stray.
My mind sending signals to my heart,
Telling it, not to cry but pray.

The weight of the world,
On my shoulders, I carry this stress,
It's weighing me down,
I'm a beautiful mess.

The truth is I have no one,
No one to help me..
No one cares enough to see the distress I'm in,
Even one person who's willing to help could make me happy.

On the outside I seem perfect,
Good grades, smile on my face.
Dont judge by what's on the outside,
On the inside I'm a big disgrace.

An emotional wreck,
Constanlty faking who I am.
Even I've forgotten the real me,
Being able to find the her, would be a prize, a valueable gem.

I just don't know what to do,
Every path I take, seems wrong.
Nothing seems as if it was meant for me,
Its seems like in this world, I don't belong.

Everynight I soak my pillow with tears,
I can't escape and I cannot forget.
No one can rid me of my sorrow,
I'll live the rest of my life in utter regret.