So i have ceased the pills... no more thrills
Stooped the blades..... this world has caved
Trying to cease the one thing that kept me going.... is the hardest thing to do
When ever we fight.... the past is played again
No matter how much i payed for my mistakes... its always replayed again
Why don't you get over the past... i ask
This is why i find it hard to talk to you.... Because everyday its in my mind
And always on the edge of your tongue.. waiting for you to find
I know you cannot forgive me... but all i do is ask
Please accept what i did... for i am fading fast
Skipping school... to avoid the talk
As i am not good enough for them... so i walk
Walk in the rain... no one See's me crying
Walk in the rain... no one feels this pain
I have been hurt along the way... what hurts the most is that i hurt you
And i pay for it everyday
When i wake up and see my reflection.... the words in my head scream REJECTION
You are not good enough for the people.. don't you see
You body is repulsive..... so eternally sleep
These words are different for how you may see me
As this is the real me... not the one you think you see
Read these letters that spell these words
As you can never help me my life is cursed
Just waiting for someone to love me thats all i ask
For i hate every inch of my body, my soul and my mind
And i am gone.... far from anyone... your left behind
For i am not worthy of this world
I thought it would get better... but i was just thinking like a little girl
Those smiles i ware and that sparkle in my eye
Is not real its make up from what i hide
A faze of guilt and a blood stroke arm
And now i cover the scars beneath these sleeves
As you found the blades, the pills and the lighters
And i had to ignore the real reason i had those
To control this hurt.. i have kept inside
Finally these scars fade as i have into the night
Watching the days pass from my house
I am more useless than a field mouse
I have no goals no ambition or soul
For i am dead from within and i have turned ice cold
