I wish they understood how much I loved him
Then they would understand why I am in so much pain
I miss him more everyday, it hurts so much
My heart is still broken, thats how it will remain.
He left me when I needed him
When I wanted someone to care
When I needed him to love me
He was notâ??t even there
Those words will forever haunt me
Always playing over in my head
The day mum informed meâ?¦
â??I am sorry he is deadâ??
My best friend was gone and I was alone
So much pain and so many tears
I am drowning in my sorrow
And hiding from all my fears
There is no way to bring him back
So many different ways I have tried
wishing, and praying and hoping
And all the tears I have cried
All the blood spilled out
Just to know I am not dreaming
The fake smiles I put on show
While inside I am yelling and screaming
This pain hurts so bad I can hardly breathe
I wish it would not continue
But I know why it always troubles me
It is because of the absence of you
