In my shadow

In my shadow.

dreaming of endless sky's

living my life up to my own lies.

decieving my self...

along every corner of the way.

never know the path out.

it's hard to have faith,

when all you know is defeat.

sinking so low in my own misery.

i could only imagine...

how i would die in the end.

an old feeble man,

stiff with pain.

well spent years...

living in the rain,

of doubt and fear,

selfishness and no gain.

i can see me living my life this way.

is this how it's going to be forever?

will i always be smeared in the dirt?

will i ever hear myself proclaim the victory?

or will i always figure that it's never any use?

there's someone here in my life listening.

i block that person out by not believing.

i am so shallow, feel like the lowest human being.

but inside me there has got to be a fight left.

i'm to young to feel the way i do.

to feel trapped, never knowing where to go.

i want to see the secrets i have hated for so long.

and i want to know why i hate them with this feeling,

it's so strong.

so i plead to the light i'm blinded to.

show yourself to me and i will forever follow you.