My final good bye

I'm not sure what to say or even where I'll start
All these crazy feelings & emotions are tearing up my heart
I feel as if I'm drowning, slowly sinking down
I scream and scream but still don't make a sound
No one understands and probably never will
My life is slowly down as if I'm going up a hill
I'm tired of wearing of wearing this fake mask
Everyday to cover my past
I'm tired of feeling so alone
I can't even talk on the phone
I wish someone could just see
The anger & pain inside of me
The solution seems clear to make
A perminate one I can not fake
Knifes & razors haunt my dreams
Love, hate & kindness..I'm done with the schemes
If I die will I be missed?
How will people reminisce?
I've had enough & can't take the pain
I can't deal with all this drama it's driving me insane
This is my final cry for help
I've tried and tried but I'm tired of myself
So when I'm gone please don't cry
Or scream and shout or ask me why
You never noticed me before
So why in my death would I ask you for more?
With this in mind I'll say good night
And forever more I'm out of sight...