The love I had got your good friend is not like the love I have for you, I only love him as a brother but I love you differently. For you it is real love, although I know you don't love me back. I will always love you no matter what.
I pretend to understand why you never loved me, but I don't know. Was it because I'm not pretty enough. or that I sometimes tease you for fun, is it because I'm suicidal, or that the whole relationship was just a joke?
Even though I try to hold it in, Orr just hide it. I cry myself to sleep sometimes, Just thinking about you and how we used to be, I can't stand that at all we will be now are friends. Right now while writing this I start to cry, All because I love you?
I am not stable at all, at times I just break down. In class I was sorting out my notes in my binder, I had a picture of us. I looked at it and felt like I was going to cry, I didn't. You see I'm not stable at all. Just want you to know the truth...
The truth may be too much for you though, seeing how you really love her and nothing can change that, not even me. I guess our friendship is better than anything....
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To understand this you will have to read Just a Messed up Life Part 1...
I know this one isn't as good as the other but I promise that part 3 will be:)
