Most guys are like that. I mean there's certain ones who don't wanna be like oh i don't remember dating her and it hurts so much. but see the reason why you keep on thinking about him is because you still have feelings for him no matter what because you guys were in love with eachother. Now you both are in your own worlds but no matter what he'll be coming around you and you'll still feel the love but also you do hate him for breaking your heart the way or whatever way he did this. Well anyway you did another amazing job. your such a great poet and i love your poems. keep it up. keep on writing. love always and forever.