For You... (A Suicide Note)

To my Friends, Fans, and Family...
I'm sorry,
It's not that i was unhappy you see,
its that life was simply too hard for me...
i just could not proceed,
i needed you there...
by my side in my time of despair,
but you weren't,
that pain i could not bare...
I tried and tired,
but it was never good enough...
in your world it was wrong to cry,
"Crying just shows your week."
is what you'd always say,
But when forced to be picture perfect,
there is no other way...
Its the small things,
that eat me away...
No comments, no calls,
or being 2 seconds late...
THOSE are the things,
that pushed me to an early grave...
I know nothing can provide closer,
not even this letter,
but all i can say, is when i was here,
you should have treated me better...