Frightening Curse ...

At first I didn't realise,
I thought it was all a dream,
I thought I would wake up okay,
Instead I woke up with a scream.

Not knowing what had happened,
Or how I got this way,
My hands started trembling,
And it got worse and worse each day.

Everything was going wrong,
I didn't know what to do,
I made so many wrong choices,
If only you knew ...

I tried ignoring the pain,
But the tears made it real,
No matter how hard I tried,
To be able not to feel.

Everything's so overwhelming,
And not handling the pain,
I picked up the knife,
Nothing was ever going to be the same.

My wrist was so plain,
So untouched, so new,
I closed my eyes and cut down hard,
Cutting right through

I opened my eyes,
And saw the blood on the blade,
I paused for a second,
And realised the damage I made.

My skin had turned from white,
To a bloody, crimson red,
Making scars down my wrist,
Forgetting what you had said.

You made me promise I wouldn't do it,
And I agreed to it, for you,
But deep, deep down,
I knew I couldn't ever make it through ...

Tears rolling down my face,
I wipe the blood off the floor
My wrist rapped in a tattered rag,
And blood all over what I wore.

I started to realise,
The mess I had made,
How was I meant to handle this?
My life had begun to fade.

The tears started making it hard,
And the scars are making it worse,
It's getting harder to hide,
This unwanted, frightening curse.