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Unwanted, unappreciated, and unloved..
THAT IS HOW I FEEL

stressful days and lonely nights,
sitting alone in a dark, cold room.
life goes on passing me by, like the wind does to scattered leaves on the ground.

i'm not afraid of death anymore since that's all i think about these past couple years.
people see me as a sorry excuse to give attention to when i show my feelings to them. they say my life is perfect without worry, doubt, or feeling cheated out on.
but they have no idea what it's like behind these walls of lies.

once in this past dark and lonely year i thought i found someone,
but it turns out he's like all the rest, just trying to make me feel better, but not truly caring about what really matters. and he dropped my soul, like the sky drops rain-cold, hard, and unwanted.
criticizing me instead of showing compassion.

oh how i long to be away from
this cruel world of lies and cheats.
i need to get away.
self-destruction is not the way they say,
but how can you say so unless you yourself have gone through such hard times of hate and despair.

i am weak and poweless and can do nothing to change this hell hole they call a life, but to go towards the path of self-loathing and commit myself to the knife...