The First Time I Felt the Blade

Wonder when these scars will heal.
Then wait for them to reappear.
The pain brought pleasure
And bliss surreal.

Please come get me
I'm losing my mind
Someone please save me
Before I'm all out of time.

Past three months and
You still have nothing to say.
I felt the blade,
Five times today.

The day was cold and rain
Fell from the sky.
You still had nothing to say,
You just sobbed and cried

You stood by my grave,
I wanted to say,
I took the blade to my throat,
And you just looked away.