This thing

I am changed by
knowing you how
can this be that
yesterday seems
so far away and
today is so vague.

It cant be so very
bad all these chance
I have had will I let
you down like I always
let those close to me
down

I try not to think about
this kind of stupid shit
but I am a fool for all
these things I do.

All I want is to make
you happy and that
is fine by me what a
goal to have

You make me complete
in a way i never dreamed
help me help you help me
tougher we can make it
thru this rough weather.

I don't care what people
think of these things
I write cause I write for
me so I can get this
heavy weight off my
chest I do my best
to cope with out this
dope but i am stuck.

I am stuck in this
rut perhaps I am only
a nut with a hope this
thing I do is no joke
I have to try harder
I look in hate at what
i have done so much
to do so little time to
do it in.