Deep inside

Down in the depths of my mind there's a secret not to be told.
A secret so dark i think i won't be able to hold.

Every time i look deep down and reflect on my secret
i feel as if i'm being watched and they can see it.

My tears make my cheeks cold and damp.
Now i remember those threats to military camp.

I'll never forget those days when they'd play tricks on me.
i'd fight back and run away so my tears they wouldn't see.

Crying for hours non-stop with pain.
Is this what you wanted?what did you gain?

Each fight grew worst, every word tore us apart.
my face couldn't hide that i had a broken heart.

This isn't a love poem about that special him.
Its truely about my family, doesn't that sound grim?

My friends thought i was fine but it was all a lie.
And i cut my wrists wishing for me to die.

Deep down the pain and memories still live on.
Even though, to me they're all gone.