You told me I couldn't write these poems.
You told me I couldn't cuss.
You told me I couldn't do those drugs.
And you told me I lost your trust.
I told you this is how I expressed my self!
I told you they were just words!!!
I told you those drugs are what keep me happy!
And I told you I never even had yours!!!
You told me this was a time to believe in god.
But in my mind... How could I?
He's never seemed to be here before...
What makes him want to appear now!
And if he is really real!
How could he let this happen to us?
How could he break a family apart?
Screw up a marriage.
And Throw it away!
How COULD he let something that cruel just happen!
And it still haunts me to this day!
Oh, Mother.
You tell me all these things.
But don't explain it to me.
I don't understand what you want my life to be.
To tell you the truth I just want to live it!
