You Are The Poetry Of My Heart

My life was total chaos
and nothing made sense.
My life was total ashes
and no one could understand.
I had so much anger
but I longed for a friend.
I was full of so much ignorance
but I longed for love.
I have seen so much
death and destruction
but I have always wanted peace.
I have talked and been with so many
but you have always been there for me.
I have felt heaven
and I have been through hell
but yet I live on planet earth.
In the darkness I have felt your touch
and in the light I have seen
love in your eyes.
I contemplate reality
and how much you mean to me.
In fantasy I have been with you
but in person we have never met.
I write with words on paper
about things that are in my heart
but I wonder where does friendship
and love connect.
You have seen me at my worse
but yet you still care for me.
I don't know if you have ever
seen my best because only you
know for sure.
Am I only a picture
or do I live in your heart?
Am I just words
or do I really exist?
Sweet words of friendship
and sweet words of love
but are they only words
or do those words have
meaning for you and me?
We have shared so much
but what is it that
we have shared?
Is it the frustrations
of two completely worlds
or do our worlds connect?
Are we two complete strangers
that know each other
through time and space
or are we more than that?
Am I real to you
as you are to me
or are we a fantasy
that somebody wrote?
How can friendship
be more than friendship
and turn into love
between two people
when they have never met?
How can two people
ever be sure of anything
when it comes to matters
of the heart?
I have dreamed of you
and how much you have changed my life
sometimes for the better
and sometimes for the worse.
I pondered words like honesty,
trust, communication, faithfulness
and so many other beautiful words.
I have sought for answers, freedom
and for someone who I could
just be me with.
I have desired friendship, compassion
and the true passion of love
with someone who could be tender
but at the same time be rough
and touch me like I have been never been touched.
Someone who I could live my life with
and always know that they would always
be there for me no matter
what comes up.
Someone who would not spare my feelings
when I am in the dark
about things I do not understand.
Someone who justs wants to be my friend
and love me from their heart.
Someone who can see me as I really am
and love me for me.
I am so glad I known you
even though we may never meet
because you are the poetry
of my heart.