How much can I take?

As I live my life each day by day
having everything not going my way
still I managed to stay strong
even when things are just so wrong

I don't know how long I can stand these pains
having my tears..falling like rains
each day this pain grow stronger
I feel as if I can't take it any longer

I don't know how long it will take
for my heart to heal and un-break
I don't know how long I will stay
living my life this way

I am tired of being sad
I am tried of living my life mad
I wish everything can just go away
and go back to my own little way..

Now am I the one to blame
that things are no longer the same?
or it is just Me
I didn't put enough effort into it
and just let things be?

Whatever it is.. I will never stop wishing..
for the day the river of tears stop floating...
and for the day when my heart stop breaking