Never again will i feel the smile
Just forget what i said
I was deff for a while
I realized today when I'm with them
The smiles are fake.. i cannot help them
But tears i can no longer make
My life is at stake... stop playing with my mind
I lost it a long time ago... i cannot find
My life so much better
But hidden behind a locked door
Is that frail person i try to ignore
Help me to be strong i shout
But i relapse and fall onto the floor
I shake with bitter hate
Just a bullet in my mind to fix this broken life
Nothing will be left to find
Pieces lying over the bathroom mat
Blood in a puddle where once i sat
Stop punishing myself for what i did
But stop this auction my life isn't up for bid
Don't unlock me once again
As it took so long to shut it up, just like when we was friends
You make me write and fight so intensively
When i look at you i shudder and all those nasty things i think
Every morning i wake up with my very first blink
I try and laugh it off as some big joke
But forever more my life will end up in smoke
Help me from the hell
I have created it well
Send a ladder down to my depth but it may burn to ashes
I ware this on my sleeve to cover up the scars
But as long as the past replays, the happiness is bared
Give me a reason to believe in myself again.... for i thought it was getting better
How could i be so wrong
Why can't i be on the straight and narrow path
Why do i only seem to be able to keep this starve
Help my to find a way to deal with this pain
Look away from the mirror as only the food will come up again
Look away and never turn back
