You grabbed my waist today as you pulled me close
But instead of thinking 'I love you'
All i could think was that I'm fatter than most
If i announce that i don't feel skinny anymore to my friends
They will think I'm made
And that I've gone insane
I look at food and begin to shudder
How can i eat that?
I want to be skinny and i begin to wonder
Why don't i resist and not eat that food
But i need it my mind tells me
Like everyone should
I don't want to eat it, my heart fights back
But i want to be skinny
But your energy levels will lack
I used to be skinny, my memory recalls
But now i have eaten alot
And now I'm fatter than all
I want to return to my skinny self
As i was happy back then
Not that i need any help
When i eat i don't fink of being thin
Even though i long to be
Deep down from within
I just ate that i tell myself
Now go and make yourself bleed
Do not ask for any help
Scrape that blade fast across your skin
Hopefully all the fat will bleed away
Or shove your fingers down your throat again
I have got through life in one way or another
And now i want to be skinny
And not fat like my mother
Now when i eat, i punish my skin
As i know i long to normal
And feel happy from within
I went through a faze when i was younger, when i wouldn't eat for days
But now i don't fight it
And now i punish myself in many different ways
Bruise, bleed, burn, and pills
And i threw it up
It made me so ill
I went back to pills because of the weight loss
Coz i hate my life
And i couldn't give a toss
