The Past Returns

I cant eat nor sleep whats wrong with me. every time i try the picture i see. a dream or memory not sure what it is. alls i know is it was real or will be. i feel the pain of so long ago. of me cowering in the shadows. no one here no one there. no one anywhere. left alone to be hurt again. but wait its not just now its forever in the end. my family wont do a thing. no one seems to see my pain except him that just laughs with that stupid laugh of delight. how i wish i could fight. but i cant I am just beat again thrown into a wall. everyone saw but they did nothing at all. is this my future? is this how it is? am i just a rag doll in the end? this the past so close now. gripping like Ive knew how. but one picture flashes before my eyes to remind me my past lies far behind. the girl i love so dear. the only 2 who takes away my fear. their past that haunts them seems so bad and I am so glad we have what we have. i get up from that wall and fight them all. i do not need them. i have my love. i have all of that for sure. so goodbye all you Morons and ill fight once more.