Now that i think about it
you never really loved me
i was a toy you used
to protect you from the fear of lonliness
they all knew that i just kept you busy on those long saturday nights
where you would spend your time making love to me
but you were really in another universe
you just thought of me as protection from the unforgiving world
a world where you hide under your covers and send me to do the dirty work
i should have known that no one could love me as much as you said you did
it was just another dream that i fell into by mistake
and i should have known that once you had what you needed you would leave
and let me reminisce of my foolishness and unworthiness
you knew how much i loved you
what i would have done to make you stay
and you took them as an advantage
dangling your love in front of me
so i could only see love but never feel it
i gave you the world
and you just showed me it
never letting me experience it for myself
you thought i had not the ability to feel anymore
but in reality
i feel you in my heart every day
i hear the sound of shattered glass
replaying in my heart
i see the love that you kept hidden from me
i taste your lips upon mine
with not a drop of passion in them
i dream that your the one calling my name and not me crying yours
and i wish i could just take it all back
