I begin to realize how stupid i am.
how stupid i begin crap without.
without even seeing it in my face.
i can even make a perfect trace.
toward me and you.
i sit here typing words.
maybe they don't mean a thing.
maybe they actually do toward me.
but i don't understand all i have.
to tell someone is bul.l sh.it words.
so I'm gonna breath in and out.
I'm gonna go to the bathroom.
and lock the door inside and out.
I'll take the razor out of the sink.
and begin to place the razor.
on my arm and slit up and down.
the power is taking over.
my own words are slipping out.
i want to stop but i can't think.
i want to end this but i can't let go.
the tears fall from my eyes.
toward the floor into the cuts.
burning the whiskey of my cuts.
the feeling is fall off my own self.
i started it up again like before.
i just wanted someone new.
i didn't mean to end it like that.
i didn't mean to push you away.
yeah it's about you.
yeah it's about me.
my wrists are bleeding.
while i get the final copy of paper.
the blood is getting all over.
and i begin to write my goodbye note.
i give you everything you want.
I'll leave you my bleeding razor.
make sure you end it like a player.
make sure you say i love you.
make sure you miss someone.
before you begin to suicide my way.
I'll end it with my name.
for the last time.
being spelled.
being wrote.
now I'm gone forever.
staining the paper with my blood.
my arms are chopped off.
with so much skin gone.
with so much anger over.
as i lay there.
in a bathroom.
with a piece of paper.
full of blood.
locked door.
shattered glass.
broken razor.
and a camera.
i wanna be something i am not.
i wanted to be ready for my picture.
i wanted to be pretty for you.
i wanted to be dead for you.
see if you really cared about me.
when i actually didn't mean to.
mean to push you away.
